Insanity

I see them laughing and talking
And I feel my mind start walking
It wanders around the crowds and back into my head
overcome with a sense of dread

Why can't I be like that?
Why can't I be that interesting at the drop of a hat?
There must be something wrong
Me

My foundation is falling
The blackbirds start calling
Maybe I should fly with them
And leave this world behind

Do you care?

Haven't spoken since I last saw you
Shame I can't even call you boo
When I hear your name I have to think "Who?"
It's only 'cause I'm missing you

It's time I realize
that look that was in your eyes
as I gave you my parting embrace
I saw that look in your face

and so

Let's end this charade
It's far too late
We can't pretend
That we're in love again
i: Yoshi and I haven't spoken. Thought of texting, but they're always busy. Must sever past and head towards future.

It's Only You

We start off strong
then our tie grows weak
Our relationship, like a river so long
Now a dried up creek

It's not because of him
Though he's creepier than Saw
It's just that you're not who you were at all

I hope you know

unfinished... inspi. by willingness to ditch Monkey

I'm Sorry (Ditching You for Massachusetts)

Let's not make this hard
We both tried our best
I've gotta be smart
Gotta sort out this mess

We had an explosive chemistry
Now all that is history
Let's go our seperate ways
Through this emotional haze

I'll find someone new
Someday you'll find someone too
This choice holds no regrets
Because I'm leaving you for Massachusetts

Nobody's Perfect

You may have a big nose and type like a ghetto five-year-old,
But no one was made in the perfect mold.

He may not be Einstein or some rocket physicist,
As long as he's here, you won't be missed.

Inspiration: Churro's not the sharpest knife in the drawer, but if we somehow become something, then Yoshi's old news. Plus, Churro's nicer, disregarding the constant swearing.

Today was weird...

You ask me what I'm thinking about
Do you really care?
It's something I just want to shout
But only if you're there.

I tried to tell you before
But you already made up your mind
Your act left me wanting more
Now it's thoughts of you I try not to find

I hope you're happy with her
That is a truth I hope you'll accept
The false smile on the exterior
Is contrast to the expressions of deep regret

You ask me what I'm thinking
Do you really care?
Sometimes I wonder
Are you really there?

Inspiration: One day, as I was texting Yoshi, I noticed things were going downhill, and said "... Anyway, instead of saying what's really on my mine, I'm just gonna let you play your games." To which he responded, "I was jk what going on In the mind of _____?"

Being Blunt Isn't Being Benevolent as you Believe

Although you've said we're not meant to be,
It's nice that you'll still talk to me

Inspiration: Yoshi constantly states that he has Cutie, and so makes me feel that "OH, EVERY TIME YOU F***ING TEXT BACK IS A GODDAMN BLESSING, ISN'T IT?"

Midnight Crisis

April
Texting when the lights are few
If only it wasn't a crime to think of you

Inspiration:
Yoshi is with Cutie, but it's boring not being able to talk with Yoshi...

Why Do You Always Write Goodbye?

March 12
Let's make this short and sweet
this may be the last time we meet

Inspiration:
Monkey and I always write about how we shouldn't write letters anymore.

Seeing You Again

March 3
A sight of a familiar face
Asking to meet at a nostalgic place

Inspiration
Seeing Z as she pulled up in her mom's car.